Do I have an earth-shattering resolution?
I think I've passed a lot of my earth shattering moments alone in my room. I wish I have a record of them - The Things That Are Broken and The Things That Are Made. I just feel, after these things happen, that words cannot express what I newly am, and to try would be futile.
Now that I do try to recall, I find that I can't. It's as if the old is gone and I know nothing else. What are my views on love? There was an epic battle about the power of love, about the nature of love. I surprise myself all the time. I actually gave up real love. For what? People tell me it's for a different sort of love. I feel as though I've been given a lobotomy.
I feel like I've fought some fantastical beasts and now I've tamed even my enemies within to be on my side. So perhaps growing up means to become more integrated. Almost like a video game - you unlock characters to fight with you. But first, you must overcome them.
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lobotomy? do you feel a part of your logics has been ripped away? Or you are simply numb to the effects of it.. or just have amnesia?
ReplyDeleteIn the end though it's all the experiences that you've had before that makes up who you are right now - if you are proud of who you are now i guess there's no use in trying to analyze who or what you think you are.
You're wonderful right now and lots of people would agree with me :P